You lost her. Not the first time you've lost someone, and now it's the same old life in the TARDIS, traveling around. You'll be fine. Might pick up a guest or two, or find another girl to travel with- her adoration, so unlike hers, will keep her from seeing the shadow behind you. Push her away, push everyone away, need no one so that their departure doesn't hurt. So what if you kill a species or two, throw your life away again and again, wear a suit you hate? You're a Timelord, the last of your kind, and this grand identity is enough to hide the fact that you are a man, wounded and stumbling.
She is still lost. And so are you.



Going Down || Thea Gilmore
Well heaven knows the way things go
With ticker tape and radios
The good fight was lost long ago
And bravery doesn’t live in those
Who’re going down
And I’m going down
I had less sense than a harlequin
I changed my clothes and jumped straight in
It was hotter than it should have been
Now with bloody legs and blistered skin
I’m going down
I’m going down
Give me one more heart to break
And I promise I won’t make a sound
From sad refrain to sad refrain
I said you’d hear it all again
The lonely call of distant trains
I missed the point but hit the shame going down
And I’m going down
Its been there for the taking
The only journey I’ll be making is down
Did you really turn the light off on your way down?
Did you really mark the mirror on your way down?
And ruin comes and ruin stays
And, Jesus Christ, the games it plays
Can’t wash the smell off my skin for days
The sex, the blood, the alleyway
Going down
I’m going down
Well I got a little dizzy
Somehow things have turned me around
Well heaven knows the way things go
With ticker tape and radios
The good fight was lost long ago
And bravery doesn’t live in those
Who’re going down
And I’m going down
Lack of Motion || The Push Stars
Well, I don't laugh that much anymore / I got too many troubles knocking at myCarbon Monoxide || Regina Spektor
door / but it'd be too easy to say, "Life sucks" / 'cause they'll never see you fall / in a lack of
motion / won't see anything at all / in a lack of motion
carbon monoxide, soon we'll go to sleep / no one will notice we're gone 'cause
we don't have a job to keep
Toast || Tori Amos
I thought I'd see you again / you said you might do / maybe in a carving /
in a cathedral / somewhere in Barcelona
Shine || Vienna Teng
in unending storms we search for space to breathe / how our hearts are worn;
we've come so far in this desert, how we blossom and we cease / tell your story now / we have so much to know
Windy || Page France
I will sing a circus song / About the birds and lion hearts / but please if I forget to stop / remind me
who I am and what you are / 'cause when our eyes close we're the same
Late Great Planet Earth || Plumb
the sky is falling / voices crying out in desperation / hear them calling / you can never save yourself
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Date: 2008-04-11 04:00 pm (UTC)Thanks for the complements! :D I hope you enjoy it, when you download it!
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Date: 2008-04-14 12:34 pm (UTC)I've finally downloaded and listened to it! Absolutely adored your choices (fantastic taste in music). This is one of the best fanmixes I've listened to about The Doctor. Wow, I can't even think of anything more constructive to say.
Love it, thank you for compiling.
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Date: 2008-04-11 03:23 am (UTC)(GOOD CALL on that Thea song -- I never would've thought of that!)
Ooh, and remind me to send you "What I'm Looking For" by Brendan Benson -- I heard it the other day and all I could think was "zomg Ten."
Anyway, I'm so downloading this. Thanks! And DAMN, that's some gorgeous art.
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Date: 2008-04-11 04:04 pm (UTC)Hehe, it's become a habit to include a Thea song in my mixes. I will infect the world! I was only going to post a few lines of lyrics for it, but hell, all of them fit so nicely and were so pretty so I had to post them all.
Brendan Benson is cool, I only have a few songs by him. Send that song along!
Thanks for art compliments! It was SO DAMN HARD to come up with something for the longest time, but I'm glad that worked out. *admires shiny art* Hope you enjoy the mix.
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Date: 2008-04-11 04:38 pm (UTC)I am very much enjoying the mix! LOOOOOVE that Vienna Teng song. I need more of her, seriously.
So, Brendan I will send later -- also, this song by Girlyman, which is the PERFECT Martha-leaving-the-Doctor-at-the-end-of-LOTTL. Behold:
Sometimes I see you, wouldn't wanna be you, you're like the sun
You rise and shine, but you're not mine, you shine on everyone
And more.
And yeah, that art is just lovely. Simple and elegant. I really love it.
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Date: 2008-04-11 11:59 pm (UTC)Brendan Benson - What I'm Looking For
Girlyman - Joyful Sign
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Date: 2008-04-11 03:31 am (UTC)I'm going to download
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Date: 2008-04-11 11:44 pm (UTC)I'm really excited to listen to this. :)
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Date: 2008-04-12 12:05 am (UTC)I hope you enjoy this, and it's great to know there is a fellow Thea-lover out there!
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Date: 2010-12-23 03:05 pm (UTC)Looking forward to listening to this - thanks!
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